This Might Take Me Out

My babes have always loved me swimming with them.  I even wear a cute, modern-retro halter one piece, conservative yet stylish.  Each year I've noticed a little gap widening between them and me...a bit more water for me, a wider swath of freedom for them, I guess.


Monday changed all that.  I found myself doing arm and leg circles against the wall at the 4-foot ladder, surrounded by water and other people's children.  Mine had hugged and splashed and front-flipped with goggles for a few brief moments, then vanished to the outer edges of my periphery.  This changes everything, I thought.  I'm never going back from this. 


It is a weird moment for my mom brain to compute.  I am tearing up a bit, but I also feel that stretch for independence for myself every now and then.  Even if I'm not ready for it, obviously it's here.  Well, obvious in that painful, I just figured it out because all the other moms are giving me "that look" from above their magazines in their lounge chairs.  I do have Cosmo in my bag...

Balancing Act

It's summer vacation time, which basically means I'm doing more but getting less done! Haha! With both kids home, fighting betwixt themselves constantly, every chore seems to take ten times the energy to accomplish! Which translates to an extremely messy house and a grumpy mama!

Yes, this is one of those mornings when I already feel the epic fail of my day and it's just past seven! Hubby realized at six he had no clean work shirts, I have been to the supermarket twice this week and still had to feed the cat treats for breakfast and I really wish I would've just washed the spaghetti sauce out of the pot last night. Ugh.

Where is my silver lining, I ask myself? Well, it is only a bit past seven, and I get to see my (mostly) smiling babies all day long, we get to meet my girlfriend for a breakfast date and then take her to see the progress on our new home! Then I can come back to this current reality and do some packing in between loads of laundry! And dishes. And all those other things that always have to get done. While the kids are whining that "he keeps putting his feet on my blankie/face/ear..."

So, I'm going to take a deep breath and write down cat food and peanut butter on my shopping list! And I'm going to kiss my littles before they start grumping at me! It is a balancing act, this whole mom thing! But I love it!

Have a great summer day! Only 60-some left to go!
Lindsay

Knoebels or Bust!

I am a mom on a mission...50% rain, pshaw!  More like 100% chance of AWESOME!  Today is pretty much our last chance to get there before school starts, you know, the big KINDERGARTEN?! Yikes, I am milking every last, loving drop of fun and love out of this summer!

Cheers to summer funner than fall!
L

Summer, Lovin'

This summer has been that classic, hot, at-the-pool-and-lake every day kinda summer!  It was my plan all along, you see.  I'm glad the weather cooperated with me!  This year the kids are four and five, and the perfect ages to go to our community pool for swimming lessons and fab afternoons with mama, instead of the kiddie pool in our back yard.  Darby will start kindergarten in just a couple weeks; my mental breakdown has already commenced.

I know we are tucked into this gentle valley of easy childhood comfort, and I don't want to miss any moment of it.  I know she will adore school and it will be an amazing gift being able to watch her blossom.  But I am already missing our days at home together.  Gabe will still be at home with me, which will be a wonderful experience for the two of us.  Then next year at this time, I will be sending my last babe off to school, as well.

Until that moment of true change arrives in our daily lives, I will slurp up all of this extra time and love that's floating around my house.  It's really all I can do, now.